Thursday, January 6, 2011

Turn Into Something Beautiful.

recently i've been very reflective. very nostalgic. i believe this mind-set all began when i got film developed that was two and a half years old. i saw those pictures and thought about the people in them. the people who used to be close friends. the people i thought i'd always get along with. the conclusion i drew was that there was only one person in all those photos that still actually means something to me. he basically means everything. he did then, and he still does now. and out of all those pictures this one stuck out the most to me.

cy and i hadn't been as close the first half of that summer, because he'd found out i was crazy about him. him being a not even 16 year old guy yet kind of weirded him out. but that youth conference brought us back together once again, i like to believe. and this picture just proves how we were weird then, and are even weirder now. like i said, he's the only boy i'd ever let accidentally pee on my head and instantly forgive. :) (because it was so freaking funny. disgusting. so disgusting. but truly my most unique memory i have with anyone on this planet.)


life is constantly in motion. it's spinning and changing. it's hard to always get along with the same people you always have. there will be people you will straight up hate, and others that you'd move a mountain for with your own two hands. we change. we're always changing. some people make it through these changes and others get left behind. that's life, some people say. no one's is perfect, but i believe that the people you have in your life can make it feel perfect, even if just for a little while. i look at my past. i look at all the mistakes i've made. all the times i've over-reacted. all the things i should've done. all the things i shouldn't have done. and maybe right now, right at this moment, i'm not entirely happy with the person i am in the present but i plan on working on that person. making her better. making her life better. moving on with things. what's holding me back from my future? well, it's me.

so this post goes out to those who have made a difference in my life, sure.
But, It Especially Goes Out To Those Who've Made A Difference And Stayed In My Life.
people like jesus, cyler jacob, jennifer beatriz, alexander james, harriet and jim, heather anne, megan nicole, jameson michael, emily elizabeth, jacob aaron, benjamin spenseley, amanda may, lindsey loo, barbara perrie, my brother-in-laws, valerie jane, megan anne, and many others. :)
plus even the few that are newer in my life but i hope stick around, such as erika linn, teal kylee, krazy katie, chelsea, amy, becca and more.

It Also Goes Out To A Brighter Future.
one in which i begin to move forward.

4 comments:

  1. I love, love, love this. Beautiful.

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  2. "life is constantly in motion. it's spinning and changing. it's hard to always get along with the same people you always have. there will be people you will straight up hate, and others that you'd move a mountain for with your own two hands. we change. we're always changing. some people make it through these changes and others get left behind. that's life, some people say. no one's is perfect, but i believe that the people you have in your life can make it feel perfect, even if just for a little while." you. my friend. are great. i want this quote freaking framed on my wall.

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  3. this is beautiful

    it kind of makes me wish that someone thinks of me as fondly as you do that boy

    :)

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  4. this is so lovely.
    you are so lovely.

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