cy and i hadn't been as close the first half of that summer, because he'd found out i was crazy about him. him being a not even 16 year old guy yet kind of weirded him out. but that youth conference brought us back together once again, i like to believe. and this picture just proves how we were weird then, and are even weirder now. like i said, he's the only boy i'd ever let accidentally pee on my head and instantly forgive. :) (because it was so freaking funny. disgusting. so disgusting. but truly my most unique memory i have with anyone on this planet.)
life is constantly in motion. it's spinning and changing. it's hard to always get along with the same people you always have. there will be people you will straight up hate, and others that you'd move a mountain for with your own two hands. we change. we're always changing. some people make it through these changes and others get left behind. that's life, some people say. no one's is perfect, but i believe that the people you have in your life can make it feel perfect, even if just for a little while. i look at my past. i look at all the mistakes i've made. all the times i've over-reacted. all the things i should've done. all the things i shouldn't have done. and maybe right now, right at this moment, i'm not entirely happy with the person i am in the present but i plan on working on that person. making her better. making her life better. moving on with things. what's holding me back from my future? well, it's me.
so this post goes out to those who have made a difference in my life, sure.
But, It Especially Goes Out To Those Who've Made A Difference And Stayed In My Life.
people like jesus, cyler jacob, jennifer beatriz, alexander james, harriet and jim, heather anne, megan nicole, jameson michael, emily elizabeth, jacob aaron, benjamin spenseley, amanda may, lindsey loo, barbara perrie, my brother-in-laws, valerie jane, megan anne, and many others. :)
plus even the few that are newer in my life but i hope stick around, such as erika linn, teal kylee, krazy katie, chelsea, amy, becca and more.
It Also Goes Out To A Brighter Future.
one in which i begin to move forward.