i am supposed to go to a one o'clock lunch with the girl who once was my best friend.
not that some monumental event occurred that made us stop being friends;
high school just got in the way.
me living in the mountain of eagles got in the way.
these things getting in the way have made it so the last time i saw her was on her sixteenth birthday -- she turns nineteen this summer.
Let's Just Say That I Am Both Nervous, And Excited.
nervous because when we were friends, i always said i would never swear; but thanks to junior year and my obsession with 3OH!3, that kind-of-sort-of-changed. but i've gotten better, thankfully. i'm just worried that some off-color words will surface on accident.
nervous because i didn't graduate high school, and she did. and who would think that i, being the smart young lady that i am, didn't graduate? it makes me nauseous just to think about having to tell her that i'm basically a loser.
nervous because i can just be mildly awkward at times.
yeah, those are basically all the reasons i can come up with.
I Don't Quite Now How Our Lunch At Olive Garden Will Go;
hopefully it'll go off without a hitch and shall just be a delightful event.
i'm just praying it won't be a disaster.
we were awkward.