Tuesday, September 16, 2014

the makings of something.

essentially i am now living a world where the only bloggers are women who are married and have a style blog/blog about their husband/baby/family and their "seemingly" perfect lives; and yet, here i am.

i turn 23 in almost two months. i am a utahn. i am mormon (generally, i guess. but let's not get into that). i am unmarried, unattached, and (rather) embarrassingly single. i don't possess a college degree (or even many college credits). i lack a career path, and a GD clue, really. i belong to no one and that in itself can be kind of wonderful.

it's been an interesting last few years. i struggle with a lot of things. addictions, obsessions, a bad habit of procrastination, a lack of self-love, a lack of self-awareness and more importantly a lack of being aware of what's going on in the world. but that's beginning to change. i'm beginning to notice things, really notice things. and i've begun forming my own opinions about just what is going on in this crazy country and world that we live in. there are so many injustices, it pains me. it weighs heavily on my brain at night. i haven't been sleeping well. i shirked off so much of my first year of college and i truly regret it. i may not know what i want to do with my life in any aspect but i know i need to go back to school and really try. because i want to make a difference. i want to learn. i strive for knowledge to better form my opinions.

i can't allow myself to sit back and just let bad things happen without saying something about it. i'm sure at this point it'll mostly be an uneducated social (and vaguely political) commentary on our world, but you have to start somewhere. i understand i have privileges that others do not possess. i want to make the world a better place for us as human beings, for us women, especially, and why not use some of the privileges that i have? i have to try.

i'm a woman in my mid-twenties and i need to start acting like it. so, let's see where this new mind-set takes me.

"i openly embrace the label of bad feminist because i am human. i am messy." 
- roxane gay / bad feminist

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