I've been trying to plan out what I was going to say.
And I haven't gotten very far.
This week has been difficult for me.
I'm losing one of my best friends.
I'm losing people that have become family.
I'm losing something that has made a lot of days more worth it.
What I'm losing is
I can't explain The Office in few words.
How do you explain a TV show being a kindred spirit?
"It's only a TV show," I hear people say.
And, they're right. It is just a TV show.
But the thing you don't understand is the meaning this show holds for me.
The bad days, bad months, bad moments that it's gotten me through.
The life lessons it's taught me.
The laughs it has given me.
I honestly doubt anything has ever made me laugh more than The Office has made me laugh in these past 8 years.
The people I have become friends with, because of it.
People I've still never met, and then those that are my closest friends.
It's challenging to lose something that has been a part of your life since you were 14.
I still remember watching Casino Night in my basement. 8th grade was almost over, and Jim told Pam he loved her and I cried. And then Jim went back and kissed Pam and I literally jumped up on my couch. I screamed, I cried, I felt so much. Just through these characters that someone had written, and that two talented actors, John Krasinski and Jenna Fischer portrayed so perfectly.
And oft times I remember moments based on The Office episode that was on that certain day.
It's always been this buoy for me. This constant that has always been there for me, the way that people frequently aren't.
The thing is, this show just got me through a lot of dark times in my life.
In 2006, myspace was the big thing. And through my love of The Office, I found so many people to become friends with.
Melissa, Jory, Jessica, Kate, Bobblehead Gary, Nette, just to name a few.
And we were just people that were part of this fandom, and we discovered how much we had in common and how much this show meant to us.
And to this day, we still talk via facebook and tumblr. We're still in each other's lives. Even 7 years after coming in contact with each other.
And if I hadn't had those people to talk to during the summer after 8th grade, I honestly don't know where I'd be.
And can we take a moment to talk about the cast and crew?
How incredibly amazing they are to their fans?
They're such a fan-oriented cast, and they're never ceasingly thanking us, and reaching out to us.
I personally have been tweeted by John Krasinski (best day of my life), had Angela Kinsey message me about her awesome purse at the 2006 Emmy's, via myspace, and talk to Jenna Fischer through a blog post on myspace about the cupcake courier.
Just little ol' me, in the 801, having talked to three of the main cast members on the show. It's a crazy world, and they are just that incredible.
It's that this show is my perfect show.
The subtly of the comedy, the characters, their situations. It always has worked for me.
And I just feel like everything lately has been so final.
It's like all these chapters of my youth are ending, and it's causing me to truly have to grow up.
And it's scary, and very sad for me.
This huge chapter of my life is closing.
And I'm just a mess, really.
But especially The Office.
I'm losing something that I have such a pure love and devotion for.
(If you're still reading this, that last line might be a dealbreaker for you. I'm in a relationship with The Office. What's it to ya?)
I just want to say thank you, overall. Thank you to the cast, the crew, the writers, the various directors, the supporters, and even my fellow fans.
Thank you for all the years. Thank you for all the laughs. Thank you for changing my life.
I like to think I'm a better person because of this show. More understanding with certain personalities, and I feel like I've learned to laugh at life and see the bright side of things.
Although today is the last new episode that The Office will ever air, it will always be in my heart.
Now, excuse me while I go and cry for hours.
I love you, Office.